My COVID-19 Reflections
Nicole Twyne has worked as an Office Administrator in the front office at Lighthouse since April 2019. She was placed on furlough along with many Lighthouse staff at the start of the COVID-19 shutdown in March. In April, she began to assist with Lighthouse remote services. She returned to work in the office on June 29, when Lighthouse opened its doors again to participants. These are her reflections on how this experience has impacted her.
I often have to remind myself that we can’t have great faith without great resistance. If you’re working out a muscle, it is only resistance, pressure, and perseverance that all work together to make the muscle grow over time. James 1:3-4 says, “The testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
During the COVID-19 crisis, the Lord has been encouraging me to persevere and to keep my heart soft and allow Him to work in and through my life. Being on furlough beginning in March was certainly unexpected and confusing. In the beginning, I experienced a lot of anxiety and an overwhelming sense of loss of control over my life. The planner in me lost heart as all my plans turned to dust. However, God patiently and constantly reminded me of His sovereignty over all things, even and especially over the pandemic. Over the following weeks, the reality of God’s sovereignty changed and renewed my mind. The reality of His sovereignty took my bitter thought of “it isn’t supposed to be this way” and turned it into “it is supposed to be this way because God doesn’t have a Plan B.” Nothing catches God by surprise, and that brought solace to me.
When I was asked to help with remote worship music sessions, I was honored but also nervous. I am a worship director at my church, but I had not worked with our participants at Lighthouse at all (since my role is Office Administrator). For the months of April, May, and June, I virtually sang worship songs with a few of the participants, and I believe the participants impacted me more than I impacted them! I remember days when I wasn’t feeling in a very “worshipful” mood, but the sessions forced me to sing out and praise the Lord despite how I felt. And seeing the participants’ smiles brightened my day every time!
Coming back to Lighthouse at the end of June was such a blessing. It has been wonderful to see staff and participants unite again after several months. It has been quieter, but we are gaining momentum each day. If there is one thing I have learned about the staff of Lighthouse, it is that we are resilient. Even when resistance and pressure come, we persevere, and we reinvent ourselves for whatever is next. “Change is inevitable; growth is optional” has been my theme while working at Lighthouse. I know we will need great faith and persistence for what is ahead, but I truly believe it is the resistance that pushes us to be all that God wants us to be. I’m excited for all the personal and organizational growth that is ahead, and the Lord gets all the glory for it!
~ By Nicole Twyne